How it all started…

Hello dear reader!

Allow me to introduce myself: I am Sophie, I am 20 years old and from Germany. I have been kinky for about three years, and making Pornhub videos for about one year. My main kinks are edging and orgasm denial, but I also love pain play a lot.

On my blog you will read about my denial, the scenes I do with my Sir and I will also talk about the sex toys I own. I'm always up for chatting with all of you, hearing your thoughts on my blog or Pornhub and of course you're all welcome to send me ideas or requests on what I should talk about on my blog!

But first, I wanted to tell you about how I got into this lifestyle.

I think I've always loved sex and the concept of dominance. I remember getting turned on by people kneeling in movies or books, like knights kneeling in front of their kings, that type of stuff. I've been attracted to older, dominant guys as long as I can think. I've had so many orgasms fantasizing about kneeling at someone's feet, worshiping them – I knew I wanted to do it. I've always loved sex, the thought of a hard cock sliding in me… I've been convinced that I was addicted to sex ever since I knew what sex was. I knew that I was multi-orgasmic and trust me, I've had so many orgasms back then.

I got into masturbating through erotica I'd read on Tumblr. I mostly read about gay sex in the beginning, then more and more about hetero relationships. Femdom is so not my thing, I always preferred dominant men. I also always wanted to have a cock, just to know how it feels. So for a long time, I didn't quite know how to masturbate – I used to hump my fist to orgasm for the longest time until someone told me how to rub my clit. That first clit rubbing orgasms changed my life – I never knew how amazing an orgasm could feel. So why give that up?

Well, I first heard about orgasm denial on Tumbr. That concept was everything I've ever wished for – honestly, is there a more submissive thing someone can do than giving up their greatest pleasure? I followed that one orgasm denial blog and came back to it every time I was horny, I came to it a lot and eventually tried edging. I could edge a lot, and I did, but I always came in the end. I got more daring soon, buying my first toys, trying pain play (I think wax play was one of the first – and it was great!) and eventually I started to search for a dom.

Not gonna lie, I've had to make some bad experiences with so called “doms” who didn't know what the word “no” meant, who didn't care about safewords or aftercare. Yes, you can do aftercare through online play. And yes, that's a must. I hurt myself for the amusement of doms who didn't really care about me and it made me hesitant to ever try anal again.

My dom and I have been playing for some time before he really became my dom in January 2020, when he took complete control of my pussy. He chooses when I get to touch myself and have an orgasm. He got me to try anal again and to be honest, I've grown to like it at least a little. I've been punished, been made to cum, been told to hold back my orgasm. And it's great! Having someone who tells me what to do is great.

I am a virgin. I haven't touched or sucked a cock yet, but maybe you will be the first to read about me taking that step on this blog!

I hope that I can give you a little insight on what it means to be submissive and denied. Feel free to send me your questions or requests! I'd love to hear from all of you.

Lots of love,

Sophie